I know we are already a week into April, but I was out of internet range and connection last week, so for me the month is still just beginning. And I’m glad it’s April.
I don’t have anything bad against March, but man this past March was rough. And it wasn’t just one thing…it was kind of coming from all different angles. A big issue at work that came out of no where, struggles and difficulties with the adoption process, some big tough decisions on big issues on a couple different committees that I’m on, and so on. Throw in a toddler that won’t poop in the toilet (he just holds it until he’s in a diaper at night), the range of emotions that come with a 4 1/2 year old, a house that won’t clean itself, and the day to day stuff. It was a rough month.
With the beginning of April came some resolution to some of those things (not the poop in the toilet yet…but at least he’s running to the toilet after the fact now, and I’m still waiting for the self cleaning house and while I’m waiting laundry that washes and dries and puts itself away wouldn’t be too bad either) but a number of those things still linger into this month. Instead there came a peace that had been lacking. You see, I tend to worry. A lot. Like way more then I should. If asked I probably wouldn’t call it worry, but when I took a step back and looked at the way I was mulling over everything and thinking about things non stop and trying to figure out what to do over and over and over again, I was actually worrying far too much.
My sweet husband brought all this to light and reminded me about a verse. Philippians 4:6 (in NLT) says “Do not worry about anything, instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done.” Pretty simple, but kind of life changing for me after this past month.
And so I’m working on it. Working on taking whatever it is that is concerning me at that moment at the Throne of God, and leaving it there. Not picking it back up after praying about it and thinking about it more, but learning to let it go and leave it there. I’m working on remembering that God is much bigger than all of what I am worrying about and He can shoulder it and carry it far better than I can.
We got to spend the first week of April up in the mountains in the middle of no where sledding and playing in the snow. There was something refreshing about climbing to the top of the hill and looking out and seeing nothing but God’s great creation (a a few pretty awesome sled runs) and taking a deep breath and letting it all go.
And so, here’s to a Happy April, and one that is filled with much more peace and joy!