It’s hard to believe that it has been 4 years today since I first became a mommy. It has been an amazing journey and I wouldn’t trade it for anything. I’m one of those that has loved each different stage that he has gone through, each has had their unique challenges but so much joy and to watch him discover and learn things for the first time has been amazing. He is a sweet boy with a very big heart and deep concern for everyone he comes in contact with. I want to soak up each moment and hold on to it. I remember crying when I had to put his preemie clothes away because he had out grown them and graduated to newborn size because I was sad that he was growing up so fast.
My life changed when I became a mommy, and I had no idea how much and I wonder now what did I use to do with all my time? I want to work on not rushing to everything or trying to hurry the boys along, yes we are probably going to be late to a number of things, but is it really worth getting frustrated over and stressed about? I only have so much time with them, I don’t want to spend it rushing to sometime or frustrated about being late. I want my boys instead to know the joy that I have and to soak up each moment with them. There are so many distractions in this world that fight for my attention, I want to look back and not regret the way I spent my time and may my boys always know that they were more important than a phone call, text, email, or project that I was working on.
It’s not easy being a mommy, while the 41 hour long labor was tough, it was but a drop in the water to being a mommy and striving to have my boys know that they are loved and cared for by me and their daddy and their Heavenly Father. If they learn nothing else, I pray that that is the one thing that they walk away with, and really, nothing else matters.